mixed feelings towards you
don`t know why, don`t blame me, blame my feelings
hahais D:

we were okays yesterday night
i msg you last night, no reply, your reason, you off your hp,
twice and im still okays with it
that one nevermind
when i FERGET to msg you, you complained
im olways THE ONE who will get the scolding
okay, i accept it, i know it`s my fault
but when you ferget to msg me, i`ll just keep queit because i understand
i didn`t even tell you a SINGLE THING
i`ll be the one suffering, alone
when i apologised, you will go on and on
but when i msg you, this is what i get
when im upset with you, you think im angry
i should be angry with you
i`ve tried my best to be understanding
it`s just you, YOU!
i didn`t say you`re not understanding, i didn`t okay?
it`s just not fair baby, not fair

something is just not right
i wrote everything here as i couldn`t take it anymore
i want you to read and know

yesterday night, i had the worst nightmare ever
when i dream of you, i will always be the NICE NICE dream
but ytd`s DIFFERENT, it was a dark dream, NIGHTMARE
i was crying when i woke up, luckly no on noticed it
im just scared baby, scared
i don`t wanna lose you
i don`t want to be hurt by any guys anymore
i`ve had enough of it
i thought you were different but you`re just the same like those guys
if i ever break up with you, it`s not easy for me to forget you
i know you will ferget me, just like that
it will take months and months and even years to get over you
please, dreams do become reality

now my handphone abit of shot3
BINGITS
feel like throwing the bloody hp inside the drain
threw my hpat the door and everything drop out
my sim card, battery were EVERYWHERE
for a moment i thought i lost my sim card
but WHEW, it was under the desk
WITHOUT HP is SO MUCH BETTER than having a hp, NO USE!

i want the OLD you
the OLD you is better
i told you, you`ve changed
but you insisted, NOT
but SERIOUSLY, you`ve changed, it`s NOT me
i just can feel it, you`re nomore the HUBBY that i first knew
you were damn polite when i first know you
after our ONE YEAR, you changed
i feel so insecure, nomore affection

don`t ask and stop asking
i won`t tell you anything because i just refused to tell
it`s not that i don`t want to tell, i just can`t tell no matter how you forced me

sometimes i just with to be single
feel so jealous when looked at those single mingle peepo, they`re happy with their life of INDEPENDENCE
happy go lucky and that`s what i want
single is good but when you look back at those couples, you`ll become jealous too


my love towards you will never change
althought i may like this guy3, like you like that girl3, i still LOVE YOU
my feelings for them is just a normal crush but for you is LOVE baby
love and like is DIFFERENT