HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER, SHARIFAH ADAWIYAH
you will get your present when school reopens okays? currently im broke, so you gotta wait :)
i love you okay baby!
PS: im sorry if i have hurt you alot of times, really sorry D: i will do it again next year :D

just 5 more hours to FUCK OFF 2007 & HELLO WELLO 2008 :D
omg! im stuck infront of the pc on new years eve, like what the fuck?

i supeeeeeeer hate everyone!
firstly, family- busy making epoks so cannot go out with them unless i have elder sister or bro that will be so wonderfool, i can tag wherever they go but sadly i don't *tsks*
secondly, hubby- currently outside with family & he's being dumb by asking alot of stupid questions, i bet he's having a great time outside
thirdly, dudes&babes- can't be bothered. either have plans with family or didn't allowed to go or whatevershit
fourthly, wani- out with boyfriend&family, fuck you uh babe! i hate you, you P.ROMISE me alr
i want to countdown with everyone & watch fireworks, PLEASE! D:

today, i've been giving attitude to everyone in the family
& i got slapped! because i purposely dirty the whole house, hahaha!
i hate everyone in the family,. fuck you people!

2007 will pass soon
i'm sitting here like an idiot trying to remember what the hell happened in 2007
what has 2007 been like for me?

this year hasn't been a great one for me
i have been crying alot, tossing & turning in bed worrying about the problem that im facing all this while
problems from family to relationships and to friendship
i lost that last chance of trust from family due to lieing too much, i just hope that i could regained it one day
family almost breaking up but in the end saved, thankgod! whatever shit that happened in the family comes from me
im the first person to start all this problem & end up parents fighting
my relationship with hubby has gone from bad to worseeee, we end up fighting almost everytime
im too sensitive baby, i can't afford to lose you & yeah i know, again, it's my fault
i just want this new year to be a new us, a new me & new you, i want to us to fight nomore over such small matters & hope that we can live happily ever after like those fairytales ending although i know that there is no such thing in this world
friendship? i lose a great friend, yeah i posted about her once in the beginning of my blogging
but this time round its not me, its her & yah, i don't regret losing her as i got a bunch of wonderfool girlfriends
i hope that this bunch of wonderfool girlfriends will remain the same, i don't want to lose you guys like how i lose her
DHEQIS will remain as dheqis

people have been asking me, " WHATS YOUR NEW YEAR RESOLUTION FOR 2008" ?
i've not make any resolutions for the past few years because i think that resolutions are a pack of lies or dreams that i can't achieve, i've never achieve anything from it
but this year, i think i will work hard towards it

so here it goes,
first - work hard & done with N & get promoted to sec 5
second - forget the unhappy stuffs that has happened for the past years
third - be a better daughter, girlfriend & friend
fourth - change my fucking attitude & lead a happier life
fifth - to lose weight *omg*
sixth - stay healthy & be still kicking alive
seventh - able to save loads of money & spend it wisely

i doubt i can achieve it :/
no confidence.

till then, HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance EARTHLINGS :D

& i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken,
i just want you to know for who i am

another short post
thanks to the pc :D
suddenly switch off on it's own after typing out a long post before even saving&posting it
shocked, luckly it still can be used

yesterday.
meeting hubby was wow :D
no more doubts about him & his love
i love him, very much, really
i appreciate&treasure every moment when im with him
thanks for everything love & accompanying the whole day
ILYSM HUBBY!

today.
went out again, with wani
so called " last minute " plan
went out of the house secretly&escape from mother naggings *phew*
i had so much fun with her
SHE ROCKS MY ASS \m/
she make me addicted with songs by rihanna
hope to see you again babe!
im starting to mysm again D:

so till here readers, will updatee again
will be going out on new years eve,
either with babes&dudes or family or hubby or wani
i don't want to countdown alone & i want to wach fireworks!
pleaseeeeeee D:

leave me breathless like i would for you ♥

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as long as we walk hand in hand, baby they can't touch us

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short post for ya because im too lazy to update :)
it seems that im now more and more lazy to update this blog
will update more once 2008 arrives!

i got back my hubby, he's back :)
if nothing gets on my way, i will be meeting him tml!
boy oh boy! i miss him dearly!

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only five requests from me baby, pleaseeeeee :D

first, can we walk hand in hand ?
second, stick to each other like glue ?
third, watch the sunset by the beach ?
fourth, kiss me and fly to the moon ?
fifth, hug each other like there's no tomorrow ?

ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNKS, watched :)
the movie was WOLALALA~
not much comment but it's a MUST WATCH movie! MUSTfullstop
& so-oh-cutestuff can? the chipmunks are definitely very cute

i SUPER SUPER ♥ the green one :D
don't forget to watch eh? :) i rated this movie ;

fuck hell damn shit arsehole
you people are fucking motherfucker, i fucking hate you big fucker
fuck to you, you, you & you! damn it
im getting really angry, can't take it anymore
i feel like im gonna fucking explode
get the fucking hell lost out of my sight
im gonna fucking kill everyone if they gets into my way
god damn shit

fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you,
fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you,
fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you,
fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you

im pissed
so pissed off
im so fucking pissed

*SCREAMS*

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it's only the SECOND DAY WITHOUT HUBBY
"HUBBBBBBBBBBBY, where are you right now? i miss you damn much, please come back to our homeland as soon as possible"

i desperately need hubby
when i need you badly, you're not there
how i wish i could bring him back right now
there is nothing i can do excpet to wait
you leave me when im at worst, feeling as if i've been cursed
*SIGHS*

im so excited about this year christmas
idk why, like so into the mood yeahhhh
blog song alr been changed to christmas song & the same applies to the bg

" last christmas,
i gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away
this year to save me from tears, i give it to someone special "

& that someone special is the same person that has been with me for 1 year plus long
i ♥ you bebeh! mwarkies

WIYAH & WAWA
sisterlove :)
the only one, i ♥ you bebeh!
but i ♥ hubby more than anyone else

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it's only THE FIRST DAY WITHOUT HUBBY

i thought by now the time would take away these lonely tears
i hope you're doing fine all alone
where do i go from here?
because without you i'm not okay
& without you, i've lost my way
my heart's stuck

somebody tell my head to try to tell my heart
that i'm better off without you because baby, i can't live

without you,
my nights & days are grey
if i reached out & touched the rain
it just wouldn't feel the same
you're the only reason the sun shines down

without you in my life,
i'd slowly wilt & die
but with you by my side,
you're the reason i'm alive

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3 more days & HOME SWEET HOME HUBBY !

im feeling OH-SO-SLEEPY D:
im going to sleep after writing out this post

woke at at 7am in the morning
quickly bath & off to meet shasha at bukit batok interchange
supposed to meet her at 745 but end up reaching at 815
i know, i'll always be the late one as i take my own sweet time to get ready & set off
board 77 & off to school
met DYA at the 77 bustop just outside bukit batok sec
SHA & DYA look so school kid as they were semangating wearing school uniform & bringing school bags
school was packed with small kids registering for their sec 1
saw FATIN & NADHIRAH!
ZOMG! i miss them! easy say " I MISS EVERYONE BADLY "
i don't care if they miss me or not but i sure do!
& our class will be at the same level next year~ ewks!
i want at the 4th level, must be the stupid teachers doing cause they know my NA batch \m/
the school will be total silence without us as we make the most noise & the level we get is just opposite the staff room
HOW SWAY!
collect MINE&DYA ic & also the paper for our rental of lockers
& OFF WE GO

took 61 to westmall
had our breakfast at MACDONALD, again
i still think macd breakfast are way better than bk's
tour the whole westmall & halfway while going to library, mother call & i've to rush home
me & family were supposed to go jalaning but due to OH-GRANDMA diarrhoea, cancelled!
trip back home was wasted~ thought of gossiping & bitching moreeeeee with them
back home, i slept for hours & hours yet im still sleepy

when i say i hate you.
inside, will you be screaming i love you?
please do :)

i seriously didn't mean it when i say, " if you didn't text me before you go & even when you come back, i will not talk to you for 1 whole year"
its not possible, i will suffer badly, i need you the most, more than my family & friends
to me, you're my no 1, top priority baby
although i suffer so much when im with you but when i think back what's a relationship without ups&downs, right?
please don't go back to your silent mode D:

what are we now?
love or true love?
or issit love or infatuation?

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--------LOVE-

• sees the other person's flaws & still love them
• wants to seve the other person; selfless
• still spends time with others
• takes time to build the relationship
• other relationships and frendships grow stronger
• trust and understanding results in less severe and less frequent jealousy
  encompasses a long-term commitment
• survives and sometimes is strengthened because of distance
• quarrels are less serious and less often
• quarrels can strengthen the relationship
  
  INFATUATION-

• sees the other person as perfect
• wants to get own needs met; selfish
• spends all time with the other person
• quickly "falls" for the other person
• other relationships and friendships deteriorate
• jealousy frequently
• distance strains and often puts an end to the relationship
• quarrels are serious and common
• quarrels can seriously damage the relationship
  

we always say to each other, " i love you " but do you mean it?
or issit like saying " i love cheese" " i love my handphone" ?
you're just using that commonly two letter word with other stuffs
you don't mean it, i know
but no matter what i still love you
you may call me stupid or fool, i don't care because that is what i call love
my love for him never ever fades
i may like other guys or even saying that i hate him but in this heart there is only hubby

1 MORE hour & hubby will be gone D:

HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY my dear!

i'll be waiting for your homecoming

i miss you like fuck!

change my blog song to "press pause" by danity kane
it's nice! really! & hearing the song makes me cry
it will forever be stuck in your head after listening to this song

"Press pause on life
Since there's no way to rewind
Really wish we had more time
Fast forward through hard times
Press pause on life
Really wanna feel like you're all mine
Everything is fine when you're here"

used my brother hp to capture this photo
ZOMG! the photo quality damn lousy & its SONY ERICSSON mind you!
hahaha.

1 more day & hubby will be gone!
completely D:
i'm so gonna miss him, very very much.
he'll only be coming home most probably on christmas
he's going on a road trip to kl with family~
ZOMG! & there's no way i can contact him since he's going to left his handphone in singapore
evil hubby, im going to suffer again for this 1,2,3,4 days. 4DAYS!
i've another 1 good day with him left-
who knows he might change after coming back from the road trip, right?
QUICKLY GO & QUICKLY COME BACK HUBBY!
HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY!

i couldn't meet him last week & this week before he go, all because of my grandmother
oh grandma! HOW CRUEL CAN YOU GET? :/
i just hope i have the chance to see him again after he comes back
i will miss you like hell baby!

selamat hari raya aidiladha to all muslims in singapore and all over the world!

it's 1am!

& ASIAN IDOL has just ended :)

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when the host announce the winner, "HADY MIRZAAAAAAA"
FUCK! i was shock & actually cried! haa!
so does everyone in the family,
we were shouting like mad people in the middle of the night
ZOMG! i didn't expect him to win as during the competition, everyone was good except for him!
i thought MIKE or even MAU would won the asian idol, everyone was expecting that right?
but who would have thought?
WINNER OF THE SECOND SEASON OF SINGAPORE IDOL- HADY MIRZA!
weeeeeee!

CONGRATULATIONS to MUHAMMAD MIRZAHADY BIN AMIR!
IM SO PROUD OF YOU!
malaysia, jaclyn victor ; si bibir besar confident sangat kan
mampos kau malaysia!
selamat kau tk menang!
tengok siape menang sekarang?!
singapore jugak, orang mane?
melayu jugak!
banggeee oeeei!

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BYEBYE TAUFIQ BATISAH!

HELLO HADY MIRZA!
once again, CONGRATS HADY MIRZA ! ♥

GOOD MORNING WORLD!
currently the clock shows 8 in the morning
it's sunday morning & people out there are still sleeping like a log
im wideeeee awake although i slept late last night
all thanks to hubby

after this, if this relationship dosen't work, i've made up my mind not to get attached
i don't want to be involve in any relationshop unless you can prove to me that not all men are the same
you words are shit to me, i can't trust you, i don't believe you
p.romises are nothing but spoken words to me
i know im not your one&only so don't say so
im not your world, my laughter&smile isn't real
im not going to sit here&wait till you're ready
i won't wait for your call or msgs anymore
im not your girl, i don't need your money
im not different, trust me
really, im not looking for a fairytale
i don't wish to be you everything
i don't need you to be thinking about me every second of the day
miss me when im goine so i can miss you two
let me become your favourite gitl so you can be my favourite guy
im not looking for any prince, i want a man that wants me to be myself

"Actions Speak Louder Than Words."
Words are empty without actions to support them.
"If a picture is worth one thousand words, an action is worth one million"
Boy, if you really want to feel loved - SHOW me that you love me.

;
tidakkah engkau tahu sayang
betapaku sayang pada mu
engkaulah insan yang ku cinta untuk selama-lamanya
tapi disebaliknya apa yang kau berikan padaku
kasih dan sayang kini tiada
pilunya di hatiku
kini kau berubah
kau tak seperti dulu
mengapa sayang mengapa
engkau jadi begini

kini aku menyesal mencintaimu
kerna cintaku dipermaikan secukup-cukupnya
hampalah hatiku dalam percintaan
engkau membuatku tidak mahu cinta lagi sayang

mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yang sudah kita bina
kini kalau tak sayang lagi berterus terang padaku
jangan lah engkau menyiksa aku
tak sanggup lagi ku menanggung dugaan cinta yang kau beri terhadap diriku
sakitnya hatiku sampainya hatimu
kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu

cuba kau rasakan apa yang telah ku rasa
kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku
kini airmata pun mula mengalir
engkau masih belum berubah
engkau tetap sama
kini aku meminta maaf kerna hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu oh sayang
lepaskan aku, bebaskan aku
pergilah sayang
jangan kembali lagi

aku dipermainkan

DYA&KIDDOWS& WAWA! :)

{above} DYA&NURUL

{below}DYA&TAUFIQ

HER WONDERFOOL KIDDOWS :)

-_- my eye 1big, 1small, WDF?!

dya mouth is sooo sexaye, i tell you

DYA&WAWA high-ING :D

goodbyee everyoneeeeee D:
so we went on our seperate ways

today, accompanied dya&kiddows for their appointment at HPB
I LOVE HER KIDDOWS :D
& once again, dyadya, please tell your mother, " THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!" :D
appreciate it babe!

i had a wonderfool day thanks to DYA!

i think that INDON guys are cuteeeeee >.<
aku suka sama dia sikkkk!

as always the picture is not well edited
i need someone, an expert to tell me how to edit like an expert :)
oh well!

HAPPY 19th ANNIVERSARY HUBBY :)

WENT OUT ON OUR 19TH ANNI EARLY IN THE MORN.

enough. no need to elaborate.

just keep it short&simple;

what happen, just keep it to myself :)

im just being straightforward
seriously, im not least happy about our outing
no excitement at all & nomore butterflies in my stomch when i think about you
during the first convo till just now, i talk to you like my ordinary friend
i treat you the same as how i treat my friend, idk why, it seems like the feeling has gone
it seems that "the feeling for you" has faded away
curiously, where has it gone to? hotstuff? perhaps. im missing hotstuff
i barely know him for 3 days & he's gone mia upon hearing that im already attached
the one who makes my heart pump very fast & giving those butterflies are "HOTSTUFF"
im craving for hotstuff :)
the first time i saw him at my crib, his smile, omg, makes me melt
i almost went out with hotstuff & hotstuff almost became my #2 boyfriend
at that point of time i was feeling freaking happy but fucking guilty two
but why should i?
you say that you will change for the better & be the old hubby like how i want two
you P.ROMISE me, remember that, but where?
the changes in you only last awhile
im so fucking dissapointed in you
i will follow & listen when you told me not to do the stuffs that you don't like
what about me? did you ever listen?
when i talk about guy FRIENDS, you tend to get jealous easily
but when you talk about your girl FRIENDS, did you ever ask me?
wheather im jealous or what? wheather i want to listen to your storys about them?
if you can feel jealous, why not me?
you have the cheeck to tell me that you're just friends
you said that you were busy & you can't msg anyone since your handphone spoil
fuck you liar, don't lemme ask you to fuck off from my life anymore
you can msg your friend happily within seconds you're able to reply
you even keep looking at your handphone like your msging your girlfriend

WHATEVER IT IS,
it seems that i can't feel the trust, secure & affection from you nomore
everything has goneee D:
im willing to let you go
i don't want to get hurt by another guy nomore
probably if we, if we broke up, i've made up my mind not to get into relationships
i think being single is the best damn thang
i want to be like WIK- & be independent
life of an independent woman & without relying on any man
because all man are just the same
there's no such thang as true love in this world & all man are rotten
just what the hell they want from us women?

i aint a doll you can play with
if you want to play with my feelings, i'll give you till the end of the month
by the end of the month, that's the end of 2007
i want you to get the fucking hell lost from my life then
i want us to remain history & don't you dare appear in my present
i'll just act as if idk you
i want to start life fresh anew for 2008 if that actually happens

im so not going to waste my tears on you anymore as BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY :)

HELLO & GOOD MORNING WORLD :D
im still alive! yayee! thank god.
half an hour more to 12 in the afternoon, easy said 12pm

HAA! im so missing someone!
i know, you know who, don't lie!
i've got 12more days with him & after that he'll be off to malaysia
im going to use this 12days & treat him even nicely
awww D: imy!

as you can see, since the holidays, i've not been updating everyday
as idk what to update about, kinda boring
i think when school reopens i will update like everyday
& talk about my happenings
confirm there's so much of happenings in school
HAPPENING SCHOOL OOEI! ILOVE!
so now, i think im so going to update alot alot these few days & idk why
i was bloghopping & i see people updating like almost everytime
as many as 4 posts at one day
how cool is that? updating like their daily stuffs
& im so fucking jealous with their lifes
OH-SO-WONDERFOOL-BEBY

& they're in the same state as me
hols spent mostly at home & going out
say that want to work but didn't make the effort to find one
just waiting like an idiot for people to reccommend some jobs
spend money too much & currently fucking broke
when in need of money, cry&begging like some deadbitch
oh lucky there's my dearest mum to provide me :D
i know she don't mean what she say
ILOVEYOU ooei mama!

and now it's officially 12.30pm
i took 1 complete hour to finish this fucking short post
& i think im in love with the word 'FUCK'
as you can see most of my post, there's FUCK in it
& the clouds are dark
it's raining arsehole! FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!
luckly i didn't go out today
KNNCB! i hope that tml won't be raining.
because..

IM GOING OUT FOR BREAKFAST with DEAREST BOYFRIEND.
& tml will be our 19th anniversay

{EDITED}

his name is taupokkie :D

ohwell, if you're a fan of his too bad!
im not a big fan of him, use to but nah
i thought he's a nice guy but ever since mother&grandma say that he's a "KEREK" hell no!
he's my sedare punyer sedare, saw him once
FUCK! kerek mauts, muker mintaq kener sepak sial, mygod

just wishing him a happy fucking 26th birthday!
see im so kind to give a wish thou i hate him :)

oh, i just hate the fucking weather during december & there's this another month two, if im not mistake it's febuary
it will be raining terribly & nonstop, from morning till night
& usually this period of time & weather, can make people fall sick
i've just recover from sick like a few weeks ago
& tha'ts why i can be SUPERHYPERACTIVE if not i'll be at a corner emoing like some deadbitch
not forgetting stuck in bed and rot as long as you want

i wish there's a rainbow after all the rain
hopping there's one but sadly to say i can only see the clear blue sky & everything wet

the rain is like omg, terrible
where you cannot play in the rain, like there's tunderstorns here and there
WHAT THE FUCK, so uncool _!_
so someone, make me see the drop dead gorgeous or dead drop gorgeous rainbow pleaseeee! :D
I LOVE RAINBOW! & i only get to see two of them in my fucking entire fifteen years of life
how sad is that *tsks*
how i wish i can see rainbow after every rain although it only last awhile

Take an APPLE,put it in a pot

Stir it ,stir it,stir it a lot!Pour some out now,what will it be?

The prettiest RED you ever did see!
Take an orange,put it in a pot

Stir it,stir it, stir it a lot!Pour it out now,And what will it be?

The prettiest orange you ever did see!
Take a lemon, put it in a pot

Stir it,stir it, stir it a lot!Pour it out now,and what will it be?

The prettiest YELLOW,you ever did see!
Take some limes,put them in a pot,Stir it,stir it,stir it a lot!

Pour it out now, and what will it be?

The prettiest GREEN,you ever did see!
Take some berries,put them in a pot,Stir them,stir them, stir them a lot!

Pour them out now and what will it be?

The prettiest BLUE, you ever did see!
Take some grapes and put them in a potStir them,stir them, stir them a lot!Pour them out now and what will it be?

The prettiest PURPLE you ever did see!

RED and ORANGE,YELLOW and GREEN BLUE and PURPLE colors are seen! Put them together and what will it be? THE PRETTIEST RAINBOW YOU EVER DID SEE!

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feeling like OH-SO-BIG-KID !

weeee! fuck you.

WAWA&WIK

ps: it's an old photo of us :)

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today all plans were cancelled.

so instead of staying at home and sleep in this nice weather,

i spent my day with dearest WIK-

we were supposed to go out with EQAH but she's sick,OHWELLTOOBAD

then change plan, she wanted to meet LOVES but in the end didn't

so i was kind enough to accompany her to go out when actually i didn't want to due to laziness

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we spent our day at LOT1 & LJS

how boring can that be? people hitting town but we? hit LOT1?!

oh well, whatever!

enough. lazy to elaborate.

oh ya! ilove tight butts :)

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back home, wik went to my area

otw there, we were gossiping about WAN KEMBANG

then suddenly, we really saw WAN KEMBANG & KEMBANG saw us

then he became even KEMBANG & KEMBANG & KEMBANG & he got explode

*tsks* pity him, end up in the hospital

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&& not forgetting we saw WAN BOTAK two! *gosh*

but im not sure weather it's him but wik say it is, IDK

from the way he walk, it's HIM

anw we saw him near his house, so it must be him, CONFIRM!

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uhuhohoh!

i've not been contacting HAWTSTUFF

im trying my best to stay away from him & just love hubby

i feel so guilty

i fucking miss hubby

now there's nomore of contacting hubby since his handphone spoil D:

serve you right oooei b!

so i must wait for him to contact me

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pssst, i miss hubby fucking loads

& like finally we get to go out as dheqisfam
hanging out with dheqis will be strike off from the cravings
WISH FULLFILLED! thankyou muchys :D

ps: due to not enough time, this post will be edited soon :)