HAPPY 19th ANNIVERSARY HUBBY :)

WENT OUT ON OUR 19TH ANNI EARLY IN THE MORN.

enough. no need to elaborate.

just keep it short&simple;

what happen, just keep it to myself :)

im just being straightforward
seriously, im not least happy about our outing
no excitement at all & nomore butterflies in my stomch when i think about you
during the first convo till just now, i talk to you like my ordinary friend
i treat you the same as how i treat my friend, idk why, it seems like the feeling has gone
it seems that "the feeling for you" has faded away
curiously, where has it gone to? hotstuff? perhaps. im missing hotstuff
i barely know him for 3 days & he's gone mia upon hearing that im already attached
the one who makes my heart pump very fast & giving those butterflies are "HOTSTUFF"
im craving for hotstuff :)
the first time i saw him at my crib, his smile, omg, makes me melt
i almost went out with hotstuff & hotstuff almost became my #2 boyfriend
at that point of time i was feeling freaking happy but fucking guilty two
but why should i?
you say that you will change for the better & be the old hubby like how i want two
you P.ROMISE me, remember that, but where?
the changes in you only last awhile
im so fucking dissapointed in you
i will follow & listen when you told me not to do the stuffs that you don't like
what about me? did you ever listen?
when i talk about guy FRIENDS, you tend to get jealous easily
but when you talk about your girl FRIENDS, did you ever ask me?
wheather im jealous or what? wheather i want to listen to your storys about them?
if you can feel jealous, why not me?
you have the cheeck to tell me that you're just friends
you said that you were busy & you can't msg anyone since your handphone spoil
fuck you liar, don't lemme ask you to fuck off from my life anymore
you can msg your friend happily within seconds you're able to reply
you even keep looking at your handphone like your msging your girlfriend

WHATEVER IT IS,
it seems that i can't feel the trust, secure & affection from you nomore
everything has goneee D:
im willing to let you go
i don't want to get hurt by another guy nomore
probably if we, if we broke up, i've made up my mind not to get into relationships
i think being single is the best damn thang
i want to be like WIK- & be independent
life of an independent woman & without relying on any man
because all man are just the same
there's no such thang as true love in this world & all man are rotten
just what the hell they want from us women?

i aint a doll you can play with
if you want to play with my feelings, i'll give you till the end of the month
by the end of the month, that's the end of 2007
i want you to get the fucking hell lost from my life then
i want us to remain history & don't you dare appear in my present
i'll just act as if idk you
i want to start life fresh anew for 2008 if that actually happens

im so not going to waste my tears on you anymore as BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY :)