its been a week sinced i broke up with MUHAMMAD NURAZAN BIN MUHAMMAD RAMLI, so much for a sunshine

initially the break with him was whatever, i didn't shed a tear. i wanted to keep it short & firm, avoid having any contacts with him, forgetting him instantly & stuff like that but i ended up dragging it and crying all along. i cried and cried till there's no more tears left and felt totally drained. i still love him and care about him, how not to when we've been together for almost 2 years. i felt like texting him or even called him up, asking how is he & thinking that the seperation would only last for a few days. he said he wasn't happy & stuffs were'nt like how it used to be, it made me feel like i was totally the one to be blame for what had happened & wasn't really ready to be in a relationship. but later did i found that, all that he said was pieces of shits of excuses, it was actually because of a third party. yes, third party but why didn't he confess things he should have? if it wasn't for the third party, i wouldn't know & prolly kept thinking i was at fault. i felt stupid.

when all the fun is over, thats when it hit me hard, real hard, i thought i would be stronger and live life normally but then again when im all alone, i felt pain, heartbreak, tears keep rolling down without me noticing, i lost someone who is very precious to me, he had always been there for me, there was always someone to turn to when i feel happy or sad but now i have to move on, i haven't been single for a long time. im too used to always having someone there to love, care & always told me what to do, the advises which i took up, i miss all his naggings, i just miss everything about him badly.

the hardest thing to do is to let go & saying goodbye to someone whom i truly love

i happened to went bloghopping just now & i was speechless. most of the girls are going through like what i am, easy say they're in the same boat as me but theirs is a much much worst case
i thought you were the same but you proved me wrong baby, you were different but now, i've seen your true colours, you're just no better like them, guys are all the same

i've changed my blogskin, just the background as well as the song to "ne-yo ; go on girl" it suits the situation im in right now. tomorrow will be the start of slacking & idk how i will survive for 1 week without seeing my sunshines, im starting to miss them, one by one.

please don't worry about me, im fine :)