i had the sweetest-cum-strange dreams last night. never did i imagined that i'll dream of him. inside that dream we were actually an item and he was so sweet when in reality we're enemys! i woke up feeling confused and eversinced then i've been thinking about it. we all know that dreams are the opposite of reality but when i told that, my friend disagree. she even told me that dreams are the way the brain summarise what we've been through during the day. i've never think of him before, how could i actually dream of it?

no group study. no going out. no nothing! been rotting at home this weekend. it feels so sucky. on the other hand, if anyone were to ask me out i would reject too because if feels good rotting on the bed and getting myself glued on the pc because of some desperate bitches who just attacked me on msn and they're fighting with me over gorgeous boy. how childish can they get? if you want him, go ahead! as if he wants you back. i've yet to tell gorgeous boy about this because he's still sleeping eventhough it's already in the evening. oh yes, before i forget, i never declare that gorgeous boy is mine.

watch taking 5 at kids central just now. Eric Dill, the click five former lead singer, is such a HOTSTUFF! hotter than current, Kyle Patrick and even hotter than mine Joe Jonas

goodbye Joseph Adam Jonas & hello Eric Dill, you've kidnap my heart

because of me, today's group study was cancelled last minute and postponed to tml. spending my saturday at home wasn't a bore at all because throughout the day, i've been on the phone with gorgeous boy. eventhough he's outside with clique, he still have the time to entertain me. i can't imagine how my saturday will be like without him :]

finally, i've got my tongue piercing. metup with isabella at tampines mall yesterday and had it done. the pain is like those when you pierce your earlobe. dosen't hurt much. i was told to avoid from consumming seafood for a week but during lunch just now, i accidentally ate squid. squid is also a seafood right? hell shit. now my whole body is itching. i did alot of research on tongue piercing but it dosen't mention that im not to consume any seafood. it is only stated that im not to smoke or take any alcohol, have hot & spicy and solid foods. i hope there won't be any infection.

( look at the picture below ) tongue piercing, except mine barbell is pink in colour. to dearest (you-know-who-you-are), you tried to advice and ask me not to again and again but i just ignored. you must be dissapointed in me. i feel so guilty when you kept asking me whether i did or not over and over. i read your msn nickname and you wrote there, " i care for you, you have to know that girl " i know you're referring to me, you even msn me offline saying that you cared. i know you do because if you don't you wouldn't bother to tell or did all this. im sorry dearest. i p.romise, this will be the last time im doing nonsensical stuffs and also, i'll stop smoking. i love you too babe.

school been pretty alright for the past two days thanks to my-original-sitting-partner who have gone back beside me and is no longer sitting with her scandal.
not forgetting, *shows gay hand sign* has gone back too. forever.

i miss gorgeous boy! good news from him, currently he's taking car licence. so in the future, he can ride both the motorbike as well as the car. how awesome :]
i've yet to give him an answer. it's not that i don't want to gave him a chance but i still find that it isn't the right time to. i don't want history to repeat itself.
maybe, i could meet him this friday because i'll be coming down to tampines on that day. maybe, i could drop at bedok for awhile and meet dearest and that's only a MAYBE *sighs*

a short update will do yaw? because after this im going to study and pack for tml's school. i feel like skipping school but im very sure mother won't let because it's only April and yet i've skipped school for so many times. *ergh* if i go, at least, i get to see SB, exchange smiles and joke around with him.

dear pretty boy, do you know that you've such a gorgeous smile? so much that i'm captivated by it. you know what's my greatest pleasure in life? it's when you stood behind me and sang a song; it's when you smiled at me saying goodbye when im leaving; it's when you're smiling away while looking at me. all this while.

it's been ages since i've such feelings. it's been ages since i last felt that i wanna belong to someone. it's been ages since i'm in love. i know, im in no position to like or even worse, love you. you're like dead gorgeous while im fugly. i do not only like your pretty face, but also your pretty character so much more. REALLY. i'd like to hold your hands again. i'd also like to sing a song for you, telling you that you had me smitten!

im taking back all my words now. i think im falling in love with you again
p/s: SEE GORGEOUS BOY AT MY MSN DISPLAY PICTURE :]

yesterday, had date study with dearest sha ♥ THANKS FOR TEACHING ME MATHS BABE! anybody can teach me combine humans and science? we'll do this group study every saturday alright?!afterwhich, head home. thought of self-study but upon reaching, wani called up and so we met at our usual place. so many story-tellings being shared, stuffs to catch up on and i feel great because we've patch up! bestfriend, IMYSM!

eventhough it's just a simple saturday, still, i loveeee it!

before i end, i just wanna tell all readers that I HAVE A PIECE OF GOOD NEWS which im unable to metion it here because some bitches may make a f* big fuss if they read and if you think im referring to you, too bad! KARMA for you baby! instantkarma to be exact.

THE - END - OF - THE - WEEK :]

when every sundays end, i'll be looking forward to every saturday because im starting to go out and not stay at home and rot on that very day, without fail :D

yesterdays sunday was a fabulous one. went out with MELANIE LAOGONG and KAI ZHONG. we actually planned to go WWW but kai zhong can't, planned again to go down to pasir ris beach but end up at escape. went together with 4T1 '07 chinese people. halfway, i went on silet because i was in pain and feeling dizzy. and i never ever want to ride the f* go-kart again, never! stupid. no worries laogong, all in all, i enjoyed it :] really. oh ya laogong, you babi babi! hahaha :D ( inside joke uh dumb! )

im going out on next saturday too! only this time round im not going out and enjoy myself but going for a group study wih anyone, as long as they can help me with my weak subjexts. there is only two weeks left to SA1 *struggles*

i think horoscopes are true and i believe in this word called "fate". tell me what i have experienced yesterday is NOT TRUE! tell me that, please :/ HE'S NOT "THE ONE" , definitely :/ impossible.


P/S: i just had my last one and after this , no more

i want to congratulate myself for being able to survive for one month without involving in any relationships or thinking back at you. HAPPY ONE MONTH SINGLE on the 2nd of April and i've survived with M for .. half a month? unsure.

im no more the girl you used to know. i've been zone-ING and keeping mum most of the time for the past few days and i will only talk if there is a need to. i forced my smiles and i will only laugh if i feel laughing or else im expression-less. deep inside, im crying - unsure of the reason why? i prefer, sleeping all day long and blasting the music to the max rather than roaring and screaming like some idiot. i choose my people. i'll talk, smile and laugh if i like you and if i don't i'll talk to you in the pissed off manner, you'll know it. but at the end of the day, there will be someone who will fill my day with lots of laughter and happiness. i get irritated easily and i don't entertain people anymore. one last thing, im sick of pleasing! and yes, thanks to fiie for making my day ♥