the one my heart and soul confided in
the one i felt the safest with
the one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
and let the light back in
i miss my girlfriends

was supposed to go over to hidayah's house. i was excited, very, because this will be a so called girlfriends or should i say, dheQisfam gathering after a long time. eventhough we see each other in school everyday but everyone is busy with each other "stuffs". im glad, one of mine dearest girlfriend still remember that we're still dheQIS- so i happily thought this must be the time, for us to catch up with each other's life again but i was wrong. it hit me so hard, it didn't turn out to be like how i imagine it was supposed to be. in the end, everything was screwed. P/S: i even cancel my date with boyfriend because of this. now he refuses to talk to me *sighs*

i cried for an hour just now, and im still crying while typing this out, after i saw pieces and pieces of neoprints falling out from the wardrobe. the picture of me and you - it reminds me of the past. you're were my dearest sidekick- wherever you go, there will always be me and wherever i go, there will always be you. you were my only sunshine back then. how i miss those times. i miss going around the neighbourhood & gossiping with you. i miss making alot of noise at the rc corner near our place or under the deserted void deck of mine and calling up our dearest brother telling him how much we misses him. i miss waking up early in the morning to catch the 6.20 945 bus just to go to school with you. i miss boarding 945 and spinning through the journey rather than droping at our respective bustops after three stops. i just miss every single thing. but thanks to you, you made big trouble. i've forgiven you but i'll doubt that we'll be together again. i just don't have the courage to stand up and talk to you.

old friend, can i hold you? there was so many things i wish i had said. i ment to love you but i hurt you instead. i've come there to make amence. can i sit down beside you? can we be close again? im hopping that you will feel this way to cause i miss you old friend.

MYEs officially over yesterday. i thought i would only screw up the important subjects but i screw mine art paper as well. was struggling through the very last minute. i did complete it but wasn't good. oh well, it's just for sa1, no big deal, right? because sa1 won't be counted for Ns. how silly of wani! she thought mye would be counted for N and she work her ass off for all her paper. guess, she'll be getting good grades for her mye yeah?

tml will be a busy day. we'll be finding the perfect gift for mother's day. mother's day on the eleventh. if i was still attached with "him", we'll be 2 years this sunday.wasted.