the world is black, & the hearts are cold.

why isn't there everyone or anyone who will ever appreciate all the big or even the tiniest things i did for them & when i point it out, they'd turn it back at me, i shouldn't play the pointing game at the very beginning or i shouldn't have made sacrifices at all. i always tell myself to stop being nice & stop making the world a better place but again & again i go against it. i guess, its nature. when will anyone ever see the good things i've done for them, realised that it takes effort & time to sacrifice something.

right now, i just wish there's boyfriend to comfort me & take away all the pain. or maybe just NEH BRO who could take over his place while he's MIA.

p/s: i'll rather be a loner. i'll be more independent. i'll be less hurtful. i'll be more happier. i'll be what i wanna be. it's like way better off.