baby is this love for real?
let me be in your arms to feel --
your beating heart baby.
the beating of your heart baby.
they know about me & M already but too bad we're just friends
& i think, its impossible for us
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MONDAY,TUESDAY,WEDNESDAY,THURSDAY,FRIDAY: no updates for a reason,been busy with school or should i say LAZY instead?

P/S: i've changed my hp & its one that i've been eyeing, SE Z770I, as well as my contact number. how wonderfool!

SATURDAY : i had a fabulous time after sending dearest siblings to mendaki, dearest momma & i went to westmall and we even planned to go to jurong east after that. upon reaching, we went to the library and GUESS WHO I SAW INSIDE?! UNEXPECTEDLY, DEAREST DYA! she was alone and after much talking, i left momma alone and accompanied dya to cck as she wanted to make her ez-link card.

after everything done, we drop by LOT ONE for awhile and inside we saw this newly open COTTON ON outlet. oh my god, their items were F* cheap after the 50% promotion. i thought of buying but half of me says "NO" and the other half says "YEAH, BUY IT!". so we went for out lunch at LJS first and at the same time consider about the offers. after much thinking, we went back to the store and purchase a long-tanktop-tunic-look alike each. we were about to head home when dearest auntie call up and she says that she wants to meet me there. upon her arrival, dya & i went on our seperate ways.

auntie & i went to almost every store to look for her makeup stuffs but couldn't find any so we happen to walk past the COTTON ON shop and pop in, again. we were browsing through when she asked me to grab something there. so i took 2 babydoll top and a black cardi. how awesome! i wanted to grab a pair of shades as well but i didn't. afterwhich, we cabbed down to westmall and had our dinner at sakae sushi. after having a whole lot of sushis, we went to this makeup store and bought a whole bunch of makeups. train back home and rest-ed , wash up and hit bed.

SUNDAY : end of the week i've been lieing on the bed most of the time. had BREAKFAST, LUNCH AND DINNER all in one shot. i didn't touch a single schoolwork and books, haven't been revising much. the time now is 10:49pm and im done with updating for this week. after this, im gonna hit bed without even packing for tml school. goodnight ♥

oh-my-F*-god! the video of us being fooled by them has been uploaded on YOUTUBE.
watch the video & laugh your F* ass out :] spot me inside *hints : the one in spongebob tee*
this video is related to my post on Friday, 14March2008, http://wawaohlala.blogspot.com/2008_03_14_archive.html

and i received an email from them & this is what it says :

Mission:Singapore Join us. 30/0309, 3.30pm. Open area Outside The Cathay.‏
From:Mission Singapore (mission.singapore@gmail.com)
Saturday, March 22, 2008 9:02:40 AM
Mission: 'Withhold'
Meeting point: Outside of 'The Cathay'. At the open space.Date: 30th March 2008 (Sunday)
Time: 3.30pm. Please bepunctual
Attire: Something casual and comfortable enough to dance in *winks.
Things to bring:
1. An mp3 player.
2. A party whistle, the kind with the rolled up tip that would unroll each time you blow on it (optional)
3. A cardboard party hat (optional)

For this mission, we are withholding the details of the act. It is for a practical reason, to allow maximum flexibility. We have several ideas on what exactly we could be doing but which exactly we would be doing depends on the number of people turning up? Telling the act now would limits us to that act only but leaving it blanks gives us flexibility.The act depends on the number of agents that shows up on that day, the higher the numbers, the better it will be. With a greater number, we can do bigger and better acts. So please help us get the numbers, tell your friends, your family, your colleagues and your friends. Yes your friends. Spread through word of mouth, email, sms, whatever. Just spread the word. We have videos on youtube, use them, send the links to your friends. Tell them to join our mailing list. mission.singapore@gmail.com and show them our forum.
Yours truly Agent Caboosukin
Mission:Singapore

P.s. Don't miss out on this one. GET EVERYONE YOU KNOW TO BE A PART OF THIS. About this email, because there isn't any mission document, you can forward it to people. BUT PLEASE REMOVE THE LIST OF EMAILS BEFORE FORWARDING. REMOVE THE STRING OF EMAILS THAT IS AT THE TOP OF THE EMAIL.-- Mission:SingaporeWe put the scene in Singapore.We organise fun for fun.

to contact them :
http://www.youtube.com/user/MissionSingapore
mission.singapore@gmail.com http://www.improveverywhere.ning.com/group/missionsingapore

how time flies, it's already the second term of school and soon without me even realizing it, i'll be out of BBSS and prolly already in POLY? SHATEC? NAFA? will talk about this again, when the right time comes :] FOR NOW, just concentrate on the upcoming exams and Ns *SIGHS*

credits: http://www.aishyahsimpson.blogspot.com/(grab through there)

NURHIDAYAH RAHMAT ( the one in red ) with her AWESOME! AWESOME! newwww haircut :] (dyaB, our fringe looks the same uh?! no originality -_- hahahaha) and your face looks like KEANAK-ANAKKAN :]

DEAREST WIK- NUR SAHEERA TAN ( the picture is sooo UNGLAM)
cute enough for you? :] wanna know more, dial 813xxxxx
she wrote something for me and i'll be posting it here, so this is what she wrote :

TO : SHARIFAH ADILLA AKA WAWA

see, they are on it for almost two years. but sth just had to happen.
she tried to save the relationship but it came to no avail.
but shes glad det she let hym go. what hurts the most was,
he dosent even give it a second though abt e seperation.
she cant do anythink but to face reality. & there she goes wondering

" and as i rest agains this old hard wall, will you pass me by.
will you critisize me as i sit & cry. i had fought so hard to win e battle.

i tot i won it all but only to find out e war has just begun.

will my weakness for a day make me suffer for a lifetime?
is there anyway to turn beq e clock & make me whole again"
but all she saw was, there was only more qns den anws.

in her most desperate circumstances, she stand up & say
" please, can i have one more chance to start again? "
& as she slowly slide down e cold hard wall wishing upon the star she said , " my love, your so far far away".
hands together, making a wish. her wish was to be wid hym again.
she wud sacrifise anything just for hym

and as she crawled to her bed ; hoping to fall asleep soon
ges wad? she saw his photo by her bed. but all she coul say was,
" for no, just a peck of kiss for you, my ex love" MEANING? - shes slowly moving on

psst ; heres some advice, move on. dets life, baby :)

*wik

ANOTHER ONE.

there they go ; talking happily one moment, betraying & lying to each other the next minute. see, this was the story.
they were a happy couple once. going on to two years.
but this guy crushes her heart badly det she just had to say ;
" baby, i think we should go our seperate ways "
w/o no hesitation or a minute of thinking, he said YES.
& there she goes, hungging up the fone. talking the pillow & cover her face, shouting " i hate you cos i love you "
pressing the pillow harder, hoping that the pillow itself will just end her lifesaving from the misery business.
shes just too rited ot it. she gave hym her everything.

& she noe she dosent deserve this. & now and then, shes thinking in confusion what happened to forever.
what happened to ILYF? what happened to hys promises?
what happened to the promise where he said " i'll never leave you"
what has happened to us now?
she searched everywhere, high & low to find her anws to her ques
& only to find out that htere was only more ques than anws. so there she goes crying. but wait a minute, she cant go on crying her eyes out till blood det comes out. she has a wonderful life ahead of her.

so why should she waste her fucking tears on this shits & she know shes much more stronger cos she know losing a guy she once loved, it dosent mean her world will stop revolving. so she said " i wont cry cos its over, i'll smile cos its over"& to hym or them, may you get your karma soon & if your just starting to move on, ive moved on since ytd. your so ytd.

" its not too late to start life anew, someone will always be there for you " from M :]

i still went out with yusof yesterday & he only confirmed with me on the day itself, in the afternoon, saying that he's going to meet me at woodlands mrt at 2pm. he's sucha an arseole for informing me last minute, i swear im not going to make any plans to go out with him again. another thing, he said he is going to treat me, but he didn't. inilah dinamekan janji melayu, tak pernah menepati janji2 mereka.

so as usual, i was late. i made him waited for almost an hour. served you right, thats the punishment for telling me last minute plan. upon reaching, we head to the cinema to so called booked the tickets, STEP UP 2 : the streets. out of cp and went over to meetup at his friend's crib which is just nearby. we headed back to cp, together with his friend, half an hour before it starts. when the movie ended, we went to eat, wherelse but you guys fave fastfood, ljs. im so sick of ljs. when i went out with this person, ljs, that person, ljs, everytime, ljs, ljs, ljs, can i have something else? like bk? or pizza? pastamania? or maybe swensens? you pay. afterwhich, i followed him back to his crib and slack there for awhile. out from his crib around 9 plus and cabbed home. definitely, he was the one paying for it
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two straight days i went out & two straight days too, i've been getting home "late". curretly, im feeling sleepy & lethargic. schools re-opening soon & i gotta get plenty of rest or else when school starts, i'll be feeling extremely lethargic every single day.

it's been a hell fucking long time sinced dya&i postponed this thang ; to buy our long awaited art materials. after the friday prayers, me&dya together with syakir went to art friend at bras basah complex. upon reaching, we quickly searched for the stuffs that we wanted and fuck, i really hard a hard time deciding on which and which to buy as my budget was tight. i could only afford to spend max 10bucks as i had forgotten to ask dearest momma for extra money. during the search, dya&syakir started comlaining of hunger & their stomachs were rumbling. after everything was done, we quickly made our way to the nearest fastfood restaurants.

on the way there, there was this crowd which caught our attention, in the middle, there was this painter who was painting. first look, i thought he must be some street painter and maybe he's out here to be an attention seeker. we stood there like some idiots looking at him painting. after a few minutes, i realised that there's nothing on the canvas. there was this group of people at the side saying that there's a painting of this and that and that on the canvas when there's actually nothing! almost everyone could see except for some of us. i personally think that the comments they gave " yeah, i can see, i can see " were damn sarcastic and i was right. when everything ended, everyone went on seperate ways. suddenly there was this group which we saw earlier at the crowd asking us to approach towards them. it is said that they were actually on a mission, the painter including them was all in this together, out to fooled us. i was RIGHT! there was this buyer who bought the blank canvas and a piece of artwork from the painter for 700bucks. 700bucks! i could buy a new handphone and psp *gosh* the buyer too was in this thang too.

afterwhich, we head to marina square and had our lunch-cum-dinner at bk. we were happily eating, talking cock, gossiping and laughing out loud like nobodys business when i realised it was already almost to 7. then we head to esplanade, raffles place, started to camwhored and head back home. i effing hate long mrt rides, shouldn't have taken through the red line and reached home almost to 9.

currently, im so fucking pissed off. they actually celebrated my grandmother birthday when i wasn't around just now, how unfair! and fuck, fuck, fuck, i totally forgot to find for her a birthday present when i went out. she said she dosen't want any presents, all that she ask for is for me to mend my ways/behaviour and be a better person. my uncle was the one who bought the cake and foods. can't you just celebrate it on the day itself, which is tomorrow?! i hope that there will be a proper celebration for grandma's birthday again together with dearest brother birthday, which is next week.

and in advance, i would like to wish dearest beloved grandmother, HAPPY 60th BIRTHDAY :] i always say "i hate you", scold vulgarities and stuffs towards her. im very sorry. i know i've been an ill-bred granddaughter. the truth is, i do love her, very much. when she falls sick, i will always get worried because im afraid that she will go, i don't want her to go. i want her to see the process of me growing up. i just wish that she will live up to 90plus like my dearest beloved grandfather.

pictures : theres more but i just can't be bothered to update everything, so here are some

all in all, i had a wonderful time today, be it with family or friends. thanks for making me laugh like some mad woman :] and for now, im off to bed, goodnight darlings

*ergh* stupid aches are everywhere

i've just put down the phone, had a long convo with M.R & halfway, he included his friend, FARID in the convo
this farid is sucha funny guy & he had this fave sentence that he'll always say when we ignored him " ah bebual lah korang, bebual, takpe, takpe, kawan kau kan yang satu ni giler, kan dah biase bebual sesorang3 "
& that made me remind of dearest wik!
ah wik, i have found the very compatible partner for you :D

i planned to meet dearest sha at westmall today but last minute, cancelled, because im too lazy to go out :D sorry babe!
instead i stayed at home & sleep in this nice weather
i could have done my homeworks or start studying which i haven't even done sinced holiday started, but i choose to sleep instead, see how lazy i am
oh & i think dearest dya is really bucking up, i think i should start to buck up too, she's been studying every now & then and finish almost all her homeworks
sucha hardworking arse, help me out this friday okay? if we did go studying.

time now is 11:50pm , i've got nothing much to talk about
after this im off to sleep, even though im having my holidays now, i still sleep early
will be going out tml, where to, im not sure, what time im not sure, with who, with yusof (uh!)
he said that he'll confirmed by tonight but i've yet to received any sms/calls from him
i don't feel like going out with him but because he had alr p.romise to treat me, i'll still go out with him
if not, i'd rather go out with M.R or sb or even susu, muchmuch better

ah, im out of here.
PS: M.R your eyebrow \m/ :D i effing love it

currently : msning with dearest wik and idk what's got into her, she's been crazying all the way & the way she talk, undescribeable _!_
she's acting super super weird. wik, i know you will be reading this : YOU'VE BEEN ACTING LIKE A WEIRDO ALL ALONG, you know that?! :D

my first two days of holiday, spending most of the time with dearest, let's name him M.R
(i can't revealed his name here because he dosen't allowed me too :( saddening, awww. WHATEVER! haha.)
just one thing : he used to be my boyfriend, easy say he's my ex, i did mentioned about him before in my blog
it's been a long time sinced i contacted him as i was attached back then, now im single, no problem
soon my prepaid card will be low very soon like before, thanks to him! oh well, he said he'll topup for me :D so no worrys
so yes, spend most of my afternoon with him, we didn't go anywhere like hitting town or chilling at rooftops or whatevershit, instead he came down to my neighbourhood, hang out together & eating at his one fave coffee shop ( so low class but oh wells, who cares! as long as its you're the one who treat me), so much so that he revealed a secret which he had kept for so long till now. shocking piece.
move on ( you don't have to know :) )
he had to go off early as he had to meetup with his friend and send his bike for repair (pity your baby, must takecare well of your hot hot darling baby, you've only used it for a few months) and that's for today

yesterday i did meetup with him too for the very first time sinced i contacted him back. i got nothing on yesterday, so i stayed at home and went online. i was busy chatting and surfing stuff when i received a call from him
i didn't intend to pick up that call because my prepaid going low but he kept calling
so i picked up and he was like, " WHERE ARE YOU?! IM IN TROUBLE, CAN YOU COME DOWN?!" he was like panic-ing and sounded freaking scared
so as a good friend, i changed and rushed out of home, met him up at JE entertainment. as soon as i saw him, i began to ask lots and lots of questions & he only replied this to me " actually right, you've been tricked, im bored and all alone outside. if i didn't do this, you wouldn't have come down, would you? *laughs* " at that point of time i was freaking "hot" and started scolding vulgarities at him but all he did was to smile
_!_ :this is for you arseole and because of you doing that, i even had to lied to my mother, thanks uh!

supposingly, my plan today was to meetup with wani (uh that biatch) but last minute she texted me up saying she's unable to meet because of a fucking guy.
you're making me "hot" biatch & im seriously fucking pissed off with you! this isn't the very first, second or third time bitch, it's been lots and lots of time you did this to me. you're asking me to be understanding, understanding?! haven't i been understanding enough all this while, well i did! it's just you! putting your friend aside the moment you hear news about your boyfriend, uh! you're dumb. the day you broke up with your boyfriend, that would be the happiest day for me for you. i'll be standing there laughing at you while you're there crying miserabely, i hope that day would come very soon. so you rather put your boyfriend which you have only know for a few months and takecare of his feelings rather than me , which you've known for almost 5 years, 5 years mind you! i have feelings too okay! it's this what you call friend? you think by saying sorry & postponing our date will be enough? NO! since you want stuff to be like this, can, just don't come back searching for me, i won't be there for you when you need me.

guess what? i gotta stop now, M.R is on the line with me & im asking him to hold the line
goodbye & goodnight readers :)

its been a week sinced i broke up with MUHAMMAD NURAZAN BIN MUHAMMAD RAMLI, so much for a sunshine

initially the break with him was whatever, i didn't shed a tear. i wanted to keep it short & firm, avoid having any contacts with him, forgetting him instantly & stuff like that but i ended up dragging it and crying all along. i cried and cried till there's no more tears left and felt totally drained. i still love him and care about him, how not to when we've been together for almost 2 years. i felt like texting him or even called him up, asking how is he & thinking that the seperation would only last for a few days. he said he wasn't happy & stuffs were'nt like how it used to be, it made me feel like i was totally the one to be blame for what had happened & wasn't really ready to be in a relationship. but later did i found that, all that he said was pieces of shits of excuses, it was actually because of a third party. yes, third party but why didn't he confess things he should have? if it wasn't for the third party, i wouldn't know & prolly kept thinking i was at fault. i felt stupid.

when all the fun is over, thats when it hit me hard, real hard, i thought i would be stronger and live life normally but then again when im all alone, i felt pain, heartbreak, tears keep rolling down without me noticing, i lost someone who is very precious to me, he had always been there for me, there was always someone to turn to when i feel happy or sad but now i have to move on, i haven't been single for a long time. im too used to always having someone there to love, care & always told me what to do, the advises which i took up, i miss all his naggings, i just miss everything about him badly.

the hardest thing to do is to let go & saying goodbye to someone whom i truly love

i happened to went bloghopping just now & i was speechless. most of the girls are going through like what i am, easy say they're in the same boat as me but theirs is a much much worst case
i thought you were the same but you proved me wrong baby, you were different but now, i've seen your true colours, you're just no better like them, guys are all the same

i've changed my blogskin, just the background as well as the song to "ne-yo ; go on girl" it suits the situation im in right now. tomorrow will be the start of slacking & idk how i will survive for 1 week without seeing my sunshines, im starting to miss them, one by one.

please don't worry about me, im fine :)

and in spite of the way i love your touch
you know its gonna be better for both of us
it hurts like hell but i got to try
you already know the reason why
so no matter whos right or wrong
i think its finally time that im moving on

mama and i had a slow talk last night, thanks to azhar, he went up to mama and told what happened. she then went to told my grandma and this morning, grandma made a confession to me which shocked me, very. i didn't expect her to be like that, " thank god"

i had a breakdown in school this morning, before the first period. i cried, again. sweets, i don't ask for much, i just want ONE thing from you guys, that's all. HAPPINESS ; to make me happy & lots of happiness filled around me. thanks for understanding my situation. you guys are the only people whom i can depend on now. sorry for making you guys feel guilty.

its been two days without him and i'll be much stronger as each day goes by, sooner or later he's out of my mind! and that point of time, you'll know im over this monkey love. everytime when he comes to my mind, i will keep repeating this : I LOVE SB :D
while thinking of his sweet, sweet smile & VOWALA! *BOOSH* he's gone!

certain people takes a very long time to forget someone, so am i but i'll try my very best to forget that someone asap because the sooner i do that, the sooner i can move on and for now, bit by bit, im moving on with life as per normal, and all the credits goes to : DEAREST FRIENDS
im very thankful to have friends like you, luckly i didn't head the advise that he says
FRIENDS ARE MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAT BOYFRIENDS

starting next week onwards will be the march holidays and i've not made any plans. im going out for sure! and im going to mug too! *ROARS* i don't wish to rot at home on every holiday. i did made some plans with dyaB, yusof & wani. i wanna have a group outing, like how we used to do, can? please? i'll miss my babes & dudes. so much of KECHONESS, planning is on the way

FYI PEOPLE -
im feeling fucking gay that's why i decided to post this & let everyone know
about me & boyfriend, we're officially over yesterday & i have no regrets about it
im just sad about one thing, i save alot of money to topup my prepaid card just for you *ROARS* i have no more hubby , BYE UH _!_

to you : if you're reading this, i just want you to know, thanks eh! you ruin my life for 1 year & 21months, being with you was sucha waste of time, i should have let go of you long time ago, but why didn't i? because i still love you. i feel like im the fooliest girl. you're sucha a dumbass! oh, remember i once mention that i believe in karma? you'll soon get yours for doing this to me, don't later come back begging me, arse ole. whatever im saying in this post, i won't delete it, if you're not happy, don't come to my blog, who the hell ask you to come here, i didn't!? dumb.

stuffs that has been given from you, i've thrown it away, remember you said " don't hate me, because i won't hate you & atleast i still keep your photo" i will hate you to the core now, fucking hate you fucker & i've burnt every picture of you with/without me in it, i will soon erase the memory of us out of my fucking mind

i finally regained my freedom! i can meet anybody without any guilt, i can do whatever i want, i can go out with my darlings anytime, anywhere & get back home by anytime, there's no one to tell me no, or who i should and should not be hanging out with, no one to say who is good for me and who is not, everything, I DECIDE! lastly, it's been a long time i had that urge but i just can't do it because of you and that is to SMOKE! hahahaha. i can smoke freely without any one controlling it! dearest wik, i'll soon be joining you :) and dearest QISfam, i'll soon be a part of you babes that is to be independent, living in life without guys.im sick living in this world with guys like you! i've seen enough and im prepared to die, im better off dead, right?
eh mas selamat, come and capture me, i want to be with you. let's cooperate together & bomb that fucker _!_

i just want to mention one last thing :
THANKS MY GIRLFRIEND(s) & BOYFRIEND(s)
you're there when im down and need someone by my side badly. your silly jokes or should i say stupid jokes make my day. im trying my very best to be happy like you people. indeed im very happy now, just that my heart still hurts but not too much. its too sudden.

i'll get over it pretty soon :)

i slept after midnight last night but apparently i could wake up at 3am in the morning feeling very fresh & all thanks to the cold & that i had to make a trip to the toilet

the time now is : 7.48am
i have been blog-hopping, finish up editing my blog & i have a new skin! im tired of the old one, so i decided to use something new eg.navigations, online blog shopping ever sinced i came back from the trip to the toilet

it's raining heavily & im feeling super cold. im still freezing even though i have covered myself with the blanket & closed the fan. it's good to be in bed right now because you'll be sleeping peacefully with the cold sorroundings.

im off-ing the pc soon because it's been on for the whole night. after this im going for a wash up & make a cup of hotchocolate to warm myself & maybe make breakfast for myself too :)

i miss hubby. we've not been meeting for sucha long time & we have been contacting less for last couple of days. bye sweets!

RE-EDITED :Im supposed to blog about this yesterday but sinced i was too tired & totally forgot about it, i used the date today, 1st march instead :)

it's been a long time sinced i last update, so here's a short one :)

February 29 is a date that occurs only every four years. this is called the leap years. it is a special one for those who are celebrating their birthday because it only appears every four years. any other years, it will be a saddening moment for them as they either can celebrate it one day before or after. & this goes out specially to my friend : ganesh , a happy birthday to you, you're only 6 years old my friend.& the saddening part is he's not present in school today. oh well, too bad!

talking about leap years, suddenly i remembered, the movie, leap years is being released today & that means that i gotta go & watch it & definitely with hubby! :D:D looks kinda best even though it's local. gonna catch it asap! perhaps next week sinced hubby has started his holidays




movie ratings : 3/5

im so dissapointed with my ca1 result, i flunked almost every subject.its just ca1, so be it. i can't afford to have this kind of result for N level or i won't be able to get in sec 5.
-END-

plans for tml?
i wanted to follow dya to her training but i forgot that she's going for the humaninties trip to kukop, oh well! i bet the sec 3/4 na are going to have so much fun & tml morning, i'll text them for the reminder not to forget & bring some gifts back home for me :D

perhaps, im spending my saturday with mother to idk where or with babe & hit town. & again i will hit town on sunday, with dearest B. yay! im looking forward to it because B has postponed this for weeks & im super sad about it, so i hope we'll meet up this sunday!